re-evaluating the plan

I went for a run yesterday. Well, at least I kind of went for a run. I took my 16 Greatest Hits CD and hit the bike trail. I didn't run the whole time, but made it a point to run at least half of every song. John Henry and Ira Hayes are long songs too, so it wasn't all a lost cause. I went down to Jefferson and back up to Harper, and it took 18 of those hits to cover my tracks. I went home, grabbed some cash, then went back up the party store to get some Gatorade. Drank a whole thing while laying on the grass trying to get my heart rate down to normal again. If I had insurance, I would better know what that was supposed to be. sigh. Today, I don't feel any muscle strain or ache. I must be in better shape that I thought I was.

I listened to Johnny, I listened to the birds, I got bit by bugs, and I stopped on the bridge to watch the mucky water go by. I tried to think of a solution to my worries. I will take action today when I get next week's schedule for the store. I will give Dee different availability since she refuses to give me a day off anymore and find someone to take my Thursday night shift. I will also find out if I'm in the middle of a 21 or 28 day run, neither of which can be a very good thing. Even God took a day off for pete's sake. I might have to give my two weeks sooner than I anticipated, but I'm taking my museum frustrations out on the store and that's not fair. I have to stop being so hard on myself. I have too. I have to start leaving work at work, especially the managerial stuff that I can't control when I'm not there. I could blame retail for turning me against myself and making me almost hate the person I've turned into, but some part of me thinks it's the museums as well. What if I'm not cut out to be a manager even though I'm able to handle it? I guess along with nurturing others, I also have to nurture myself, especially my interpersonal communication methods - this will help in probably all aspects of my life.

I think I have to hit the bookstore on my way home tonight. Woot! When feeling depressed, go to Borders and buy your troubles away.

I'm on my last disc of House. I think that I'm either going to buy this myself or just start to rewatch it when I get done. It's good stuff. If you don't watch it, you should. One of the episodes yesterday had the first person die in it. I was beginning to wonder.

Btw, I turned on my tv last night before bed and changed it to OLN. Guess what channel came through last night???? YAY!!! I got to see at least ten minutes of recap coverage. That was exciting. And those questions I thew out to the blog gods yesterday were answered. At least one of them to some extent...thanks for the uplifting thought. :)