On the Mend, take two

I didn't sleep long this morning, but I didn't wake up to an alarm clock, so I guess that is all that matters.

The quickest way to change is through action. And the quickest way out of misery is through decision and confidence. Today, I acted on a nagging thought in the back of my head without thinking three times about it.

I handed Dee my letter of resignation at the store today. She asked why, I listed my complaints about Kathie. She defended her. She said she was sorry I didn't give her more of a chance because she is still transitioning. I said I couldn't go to work and be unhappy and aggravated anymore; that it was fair to you guys and the customers and I didn't want to say things that I didn't mean. She understands I have a lot on my plate and that I'm tired. I suggested maybe a full staff meeting to introduce some of the new changes and expectations. She said she was sorry, that wasn't going talk me into doing anything that made me unhappy, and that she would talk to Kathie about it. I said that I would have probably left by mid-September anyway, but this just pushed it up. Then she stopped talking for a minute and said, wow, I'm picturing Christmas without Amy and it's scary. I said yeah, all those mannequins. She laughed. I laughed. I said I would see her on Friday. My voice was kind of shaky and I know I had more complaints, but I did what I had to when I had to do it. She was sad and shocked. I cried a little bit when I told Mo that I had my letter, she hugged me twice and told me to come back and visit.

I'll be missed. I'll miss them. But I can't be breaking my back and ruining myself over a job that I have no future in. It will be for the best. And if not, I didn't burn any bridges.