Some downtime

I started to make a list of things I need to do this week. Somehow I thought there were more important things to accomplish than 1) pedicure 2) Circuit City-Season 2 of 24 3) Borders (though I'm waiting on this until I get my next emailed coupons) and with question marks - 4)Bank-car loan and 5) used car lots: look. Four and five were going to be taken care of on Thursday, that is, if I had the balls to go into my bank and ask them to give me money by myself. But I can't do that now *sigh* because I have a flipping meeting downtown in the middle of my blasted day. Sorry, I said I would stop complaining about that now. This is my 15th day working and it will be 21 until the possibility of a day off (I get my schedule for next week at the store tonight when I go in). Good Lord! Well, maybe Memorial Day does count as a day off after all, in which case my count has to be modified. I may be working my life away but I don't collect any benefits. So I didn't get paid for that holiday. I have to go back to May 21st to find an empty day in my planner (not including Memorial Day).

That makes me bitter just writing about it. And even with it I can still find it within myself to be envious of my friends with full-time jobs, with normal hours, with benefits, most of them without college degrees. It used to be because I didn't work enough, now it's because I work too much. Yeah, I have a job in my field and am getting my foot in the door, but is it really worth it? As much as I bitch about working at the store, I like it and I'm good at it. And it's not an office job. But what has to give before I find myself breaking down.

The Oilers lost last night. I blame Ethan Moreau entirely. I knew the game would be shot when he was in the box. I knew the 'Canes were going to win. I think it's impressive that Carolina is in the finals for the second time in four years. They are a good team and they have decent players, it's just that they are a Southern hockey city and it just isn't right. I like Ray Whitney. I hate Aaron Ward. I'd rather see the Cup back in Canada. It's been too long since Stanley's been home. Let him go back. And do it for Rollie's sake. He's out for the rest of the series. :*(