Lost It

As a weekend manager, I have to deal with every problem every weekend by myself, and I can handle it. I'm able to skate through situations other people would crumble in. But this morning, I lost my cool and because I'm so discombobulated with my work load, I felt like I lost complete control of the situation. Add the Free Press Marathon being run a weekend later this year and using roads that are in my operation routes and I go nuts. I took a ten minute regrouping in my office and then went down to let everyone know that I was calm and apologized for losing it earlier in the day. They knew it was out of my character and was glad I was back on track.

Tomorrow, I have a VSA meeting and am hoping to start things afresh with them. As they will be my veteran staff now, I want there feedback and reassurance that everything will be okay as we go through this rather stressful transition. I also have to call and start to set up interviews. I am about to crack with this schedule and juggling everything. My goal is to be the type of boss that they can come to with problems and have an open communication policy when they notice something wrong. And I want us to be able to work together to troubleshoot the problem. Whether that is at all possible or not, I'm not sure, but I'm sure as hell going to try. And with enough effort, it will succeed.

If anyone has a spare air matress, could I borrow it? I think I have to live in my office for the next few days to feel like I have control over everything that is going on. I moved out my cozy cube Sat night to my new office. It's big and bare and needs some decorating. I should take my camera and post them so I can get suggestions.

I'm not rubbing it in, I'm just asking for help. And don't think that word won't come up about 1,000 times tomorrow in the operations meeting. I have a long list of concerns that only I could think of to ask. Darn my work ethic.