33.40 - Don't disappoint

I'm confused about tonight's game. I want to believe that they can pull it off, but I'm not sure they have given me enough proof that their hearts are in it and their bodies can keep up with it. It's not lost optimism; it's skeptism and I'm entitled. I've seen them play like this before and sadly, it has gotten them more first round exits. Do I want to retire in disappointment or glory? Time will tell.

I got new departments of responsibility at the store. Mannequins and marketing. I spent four hours yesterday organizing all the marketing. Then I made a note explaining my system. It doesn't matter. The mannequins I so neatly organized are already trashed. And since everyone is lazy who works there, when the time comes for marketing to be changed, my nice files will be destroyed, leaving me extremely pissed off and completely disappointed.

I had an epiphany while driving home last night. I decided that starting Monday, I will once again actively seek teaching assignments. The sooner I make myself believe that is in my best interest, the better off I'll be. Until that time comes, I'll just find something else to do.