It's been good

So my plan is working. On Monday I went to work with a carefree attitude and was able to talk several coworkers out of anger-driven attacks with my fresh perspective. It's Wednesday and I haven't gotten angry once this week. Not only is it because I'm making every effort not too, but because I do not ever want to relive the events, feelings and emotional nightmares of last week. Never, ever again. And I feel great being in control of my emotions at work and not letting them get the best of me. It's almost like I have the upper hand on all of them, especially since I let my frustrations be seen by so many people. Since only I have the power to affect change for myself and those around me, I'm up to the plate and ready to take the fast balls.

It's been said that the reason I probably get so upset is because I take it too personally or I care too much. But I think my work matters and I want to take it personally. To me, it is personal. And I want to care because I think what I do matters to a lot of people and I have a responsibility to care. On the other hand, if some of my coworkers won't care or listen to my ideas, then I'm not going to care AS much. I haven't cared AS much all week and it's been treating me pretty good. I'm actually really proud of my plan and seeing it carried through. It's help me become myself again - and I think I'm helping other people who are fed up at work not to care either. I feel like I'm leading a revolution or something. Ha.

Speaking of leading - I'm getting really close to firing at least one of my staff members, if not more. It should be a learning experience for all of us. And it's not because I'm angry, it's because they might as well be holding my shoulders, shaking me and screaming that they no longer want to be employed. All of my coaching and nurturing as their supervisor won't help them come back from the dark side.

I guess you can start to call me Luke now. I won't mind. :)