It's No Fun

I've been a depressed wreck since finding out some rather devestating news about five hours ago. And while this is only the first answer, it still leaves me in a whirl of questions and concerns about myself, those around me and my future. And to make it even better, I've come home to an empty house. Part of me doesn't care what tomorrow is, where anyone is in the world, I just want to collapse and cry in his arms. I justify that bit of selfishness with the other part of me knowing that this very well could be self-inflicted and that it is great that he is recognizing the significance of tomorrow now that part of his family is half a world away. It's just overwhelming to deal with alone at the moment of discovery. So - good luck to me on this one.